just deserts

you have ruined me
for my parents’ bananas
yes, you read that correctly
you have not ruined
those homegrown treats for me
for i will always love eating them
but you have ruined me for them
because each time i snack
on those sweet stubby little
southeast asian imports
i cannot help but remember
the first time i gave one to you
and the look of utter contentment
that crossed your face
at each small deliberate bite
of ripened yet still firm fruit
and i cannot help but feel
that each chunk of banana
that now passes between my lips
deserves more